Ex-girlfriend

I m wondering what is love? 

It make people hate and love. When together, nothing is impossible, everyday want to meet up, cinema, shopping and blablabla; when separate, please f__k off and get lost, that is what i feel from her. A normal greeting to her, and i got such reply, "I'm so uncomfortable with your "recently"." Just a greeting message she will got so big response and annoyed. 

She is my first actually, may be i treated her not good enough(got no experience bh). I also cannot say anything on her, because she is giving her patience as well when we are still together. The reason we separate i think is because of mindset, we got different thinking. I think is because of her age, she is younger than me. So she cannot tolerate with what i was plan(future plan), she want to has her own don't want to has a same goal with me. 

Now, single life is nice, but i prefer have a girl friend so she can go through every happiness with me. 

《On call 36小时》：期望与被期望

 每个人对生命都有不同的期望，有些是为了自己，有些是为了满足别人，但从来没人能保证，这些期望何时可以达成，如果期望真的无法达成，是否应该坚持下去呢？

    期望能够达成的时候确实很兴奋，既是只是一个非常细小的期望，当它能够落实的时候，人生马上就像重燃希望，不过期望有时其实很虚无缥缈，但却是我们的精神支柱，就像空气，我们的身体需要靠空气才能生存，而我们的心需要有期望，才有力气好好生活！

    每个人都想自己的期望能够达成，但世事往往不能尽如人意，有时期望越大，失望越大，反而没期望就不会有不必要的痛苦,或者期望会带来痛苦，但正因为有期望，就算有多痛苦我们都可以撑过去，所以即使多么害怕失望，多么怕痛，也不能失去期望！

    作家莎士比亚曾经写过，期望是唯一能够治苦难的药物，我更加觉得当你悲伤的时候，期望就像一首能够安抚伤痛的音乐，能够达成期望当然是开心的事情，但有时候我们的期望，会违背了其他人的愿望，难免作出取舍，放弃哪一个期望都要付出代价，但是除了自己，没人告诉你应该如何抉择，有些期望可能不关你的事情，你会不懂为何有些人愿意牺牲性命，也要追求一些不会有结果的期望，若用心感受，你便会学会，每个期望或轻或重都是值得尊重的。可是无论期望带给你安慰、快乐、还是伤心、能够期望与被期望都是幸福的事，因为我们还生存着！就算多少个期望落空，我们也可以有新的期望，直接生命的最后一刻！

University Malaysia Sabah Convocation

去了学姐们的毕业典礼，突然有想毕业的感觉，看见大家都迈向生活的下一个阶段，心里也有点冲动想快点毕业呢，回到家乡跟朋友们一起为未来冲刺。

哪一个学期的回忆终于到一段落啦，也许这一次的相见是大家最后一次的相见呢。也不知道未来还有没有机会在遇见大家，出来喝喝茶。也许我们大家也只是会在面子书上打个招呼，问问侯了事。好想念当初大家一起去吃，一起去玩的日子。没有了他们生活上感觉少了很多意义。

毕业典礼的结束也就是跟他们说再见的时候了，希望学姐们在未来的日子里有更大的成就。要是成功了，可别忘了我哦 (^.^)

这是从一个学姐的花，很香，很美，也很重，就是因为重我才有机会拿着呢^^ 偷偷的拿来SS一下，也感受下还有多一年半我将毕业的感觉。。。

Senior 们，再会啦。。。。。

我会想念你们的~~ <3

LMFAO - Party Rock Anthem ft. Lauren Bennett, GoonRock

PARTY ROCK
Yeah
Wooo!!!!
LETS GO!!

Party rock is in the house tonight
Everybody just have a good time
And we gonna make you lose your mind
Everybody just have a good time [X2]

We just wanna see yaa!

Shake That !

In the, club party rock look up on your girl
She on my jock non stop when we in the spot
Booty move away like she on the block
What the track I gots to know
Top jeans tatto cause I'm rock and roll
Half black half white diamino
Gain the money, out the door

Yoooo!!
I'm runnin through these hoes like drano
I got that devilish flow rock and roll no halo
We party rock yea! that's the crew that I'm reppin
On the rise to the top no led in our zeppelin
Hey!!!
Party rock is in the house tonight
Everybody just have a good time
And we gonna make you lose your mind
Everybody just have a good time [X2]

We just wanna see yaa!

Everyday I'm shuffelin

Shuffelin shuffelin

Step up fast and be the first girl to make me throw this cash
We get money don't be mad now stop hatein is bad

One more shot for us
Another round
Please fill up my cup
Don't mess around
We just wanna see
You shake it now
Now you wanna be
Your naked now

Get up get down put your hands up to the sun [X3]
Put your hands up to the sun [X2]
Get up [X9]
Put your hands up to the sun
To the sun
Put your hands up !!!!!

Party rock is in the house tonight
Everybody just have a good time
And we gonna make you lose your mind
Everybody just have a good good good time

Ohhhhh!!Ohhhhhh!!!Ohhhhhh!!!Ohhh!

Phone

I'm looking for a new phone, the spec i want is Android, nice photo shooting spec, big screen, square shape, and easier facebooking software like i-phone, so i got some model to let me consider which is HTC SENSATION, HTC INSPIRE and HTC INCREDIBLE 2. I like HTC phone, that why the model i chosen all are in HTC brand, and it is smart phone as smart as me ^^

Working For Yourself

This is the second week i have my job, it is so tired if you are working for other. From 8am i have to wake up and start working at 10am, my job will end at 9pm but everyday the shop also close more than the fixed time. So, if you are working for other, you are selling your own time to other, it is not worth at all and is tiring yourself.
And i'm really tired......
Now, i have my new plan which is i will work for my cousin until end of July which is also beginning of August i will start do my own business, travelling around at Penang, Kampar and Singapore i think. The purpose of working with my cousin for two month is to collect the money for that month i can do my own thing, at least not waste the time to do my thing. I will also attend the course of repairing cell phone if there is any course just need only for one month then i can have the skill. (but i think the tool for repair is not cheap)
My friends, if you wanna have a normal live you can continue work for other and remember you are selling your time to other. Why not we work harder and learn to be a boss and buy others time to do our thing and get our brighter future? Everyone can be the boss, but the requirement is we must learn to be a boss because not everyone can be it. This world come to a 80-20 theory, 80% is working for the 20% people. My friends, i just want to be the 20% people how about you? Come join me if you are really interested to be a boss, i got the way, we fight together!!!!

UNI Sem Break

May, June, July and August are a long holiday, it drove me crazy.

Before i come back from Labuan, i thought i got thing/ job is waiting for me to do,

but the fact is not, my friends all quit the previous career and joined a different company to work.

I found a lot of job, and prepared my own resume post on Jenjobs.com and jobstreets.com for the invitation,

i applied for a lot of company also which related to sales career, i realize the real society is scary now.

The thing i feel scare is about the job and the salary are not in proportion. A high level such as manager job just can get around RM2k salary. It is really "OMG".

Just because of my requirement is not bad, some company was invited me for a interview but i rejected. Just because i scare and the i do not know how to go the place where in PJ.

And just because the failure of my expectation drive me missing the way in my holidays, i totally lost the way and don't know want to do what to make my holiday meaningful. i failed!! 

But at least now i got a relax job but the working is damn long for me which is help my cousin to assist him. Working hour start from 10am to 9pm 11 hours, working day is monday to saturday and sunday might do also. The longer working hour made me cant do my own stuff and feel sad with that, i can't do the thing i like. Totally like selling my time to my cousin just like the word i told my downline: working for others equals to selling our time to other because we are not doing our own things.

At the end, i just hope the time pass faster i hope to go back study, at least i got some thing to do and not wasting my time to work for other, it is useless for my future.

An Awful Day

I missed my final exam for Canoe subject which is containing 3 credit hour subject, it made me so moody and sadness. Now everything is just hope from the god bless can let me makeup the exam in this holiday, otherwise, my CGPA will be drop badly, from 3.09 to 2.00 i think, it made me stress.

At night, i got an outing with my be loved seniors, but just because of a misunderstood among me and my brother cause me could not get out from school. I had try to go out but at the end i had been recorded in the bad list, hope it would be nothing happen and would not effect my result.

At the end, i went back to my hostel and have a sweet dream rest.....
Everything hope will be fine, god bless me~~

What To Do?

Sometimes i have no idea in caring some body,

is the problem of i m too sensitive? or i m too girly? @@

i think i m care enough to others, but always come with opposite result,

in love, in friendships, in family.......

i hope someone can really know me, but still finding it, may be will appear some day, 10 years, 20 years?? who know...

i m so hurt with my pass, hope it will be never happen again, i don't like the feeling,

but i m so happy because i got a best friend in UNI, ms. R ....

Is a Happy Day or a Sad Day?

Tomorrow i m going back home already, i should happy....

The problem is today test made me down, it forced me change my flight to go home just because of a half hour test, it cost me RM 350++ , what a crazy lecturer in university? some more don't allow me to replace the test. i m wondering those lecturer thinking, especially is (M) people, what is in their mind?

Second thing made me moody is someone request me to help them do some thing, but i still need to see their face, some more want me waiting them for a long time to pick the result. I m really sad is because the people never bother me for a time, but suddenly find me back to help. I have been used by the people, the problem is i won't mind whether the people is using me or not, i also will totally help the people done the things. But at the end, the people need me to wait them for so long, some more give me a reason lazy to find me to get back the result, it is hurt me, i m so sad...

So, should i happy or sad?

I m really sad and moody for the night, no one can let me shout out, no one can let me got the confidence with them, even if got also fall asleep already......

But it is passed, now is already 12am is a new day, so i will forget it and face to a new begin with positive thinking and happy mood, i hope my closest friend also can same with me.....